A story of an antagonist chapter 1 part 1

What did i do to deserve this? A bold statement indeed... The only thing that I desire is to live. Just because I am not a knight nor someone with particular talent, doesn't mean I have no worth in the society. Since I earn no benefit from this world, nor will i receive any repayment for my effort, may as well just destroy it, this world of mine...

Day 1
This morning, I read the news paper regarding to the serial rapist which torture any women and children they see. 2 children and 3 women found dead at the street this morning and still wondering when will the country fix this issue. Today is the day where the Prince of Establer visiting Dunsber, a small country which I was raise and live in. I am just a lowly servant in the castle working as a ... ever since I was 8. This job of mine has no need of skills or talent, rather as a... cold blooded person who disregard his own emotion. After all, even when my mother and father are sentenced to the gallow, I never once felt shiver down my spine. Anyway, enough of my past, the Prince entered the castle and all of us have to greet him. He entered with a proud smile on his face, as expected from a hero who slayed the dragon. Here enters our princess, I found her stunning, gracefully starting a conversation with the prince and talk about things that I have no right to know. A ghostly figure tap me lightly on my shoulder and suggest me to come. I nodded and knowing what I should do. When i walk out the banquet hall I ask

"How many today,"

The grand sorcerer, who wore in his dark robe as usual, replied with a light voice,

"3 today sir,"

I nodded knowing what have I gotten myself into. I stand on a stage with crowd of people surrounding it. There a women with wounds all over her face standing and facing the crowd, a child crying and shouting for his mom. Sorry little boy, I seen it before, just as you did... I pulled the leaver and the seeing the lifeless body flung across the gallow.